Monday, February 4, 2008

expressing the emptiness inside me..

ok, i missed alot of posts. I keep seeing my PSLs in the bus -.-" Most often: Qian Ying// Once only: pekkhoon. Soo here are recaps from Wednesday, errr.... 30th Jan, yea. here goes.

wed: ehh, i dun really remember, ok but... there was PSL Investiture, we were passing messages from front to back saying,"eh, shout for the PSLs!!!" then everyone nodded their heads. but guess what. we were one of the classes that never shouted. i feel so damn bad la. after all they did for us... I wanted to scream, but heck, i couldn't even swallow my saliva, i had a severe sore throat. But i could talk softly, voice was hoarse though. again i felt worst, i missed PSS, and would probably miss it throughout the whole thing. you know why? Cause of my piano lessons... Sorry PSLs, i know you guys are trying your best to make us feel as a class. And i think u guys are succeeding. I don't feel that my frens are weird, i feel a little more comfortable with them nowadays. especially the four fairytale shit welfare. maybe 3. me(shitpunzal), BerNICE-.-"(Shiterella), Nicole(Shitting Beauty). Yea, we changed the first part of the word with shit. Nicole's one rocks. I requested Little red riding hood.), cause i didn't know how to spell Rapanzel(the pronunciation is correct -.- spelling, no.) Thanks to you guys, maybe i'll specify. Ehhh, I think you guys names are... QianYing(the most socializing one of all -.-), Eelin(2nd in row, abit rough though. no insult here, quite friendly too though.), Clementine(friendly one, not so talkative) and last but not least, Pekkhoon(quite friendly i think, quiet girl, doesn't seem to talk to us, but she's still great, all the PSLs are.)

Its not confusing right? i know i'm writing alot. Once again, thank you PSLs, i've never talk to u guys, but i'm still grateful to u guys. Want to know why i seem to be giving u guys the "i-hate-you-and-am-trying-to-ignore-you" look with my eyes all the time? I have this problem all of u haven't heard of. I can't control myself properly sometimes. i don't know how to express emotions, except hatred, and sadness(with my eyes only ok?). i quarrelled with my chinese teachers before, my friends all said they were afraid to go near me, because i looked vry scary with my eyes filled with hatred. Please try to understand, i try my best to be quiet, cause i don't want to give u guys the wrong idea.

P.S I'm not acting emo here.

Thk you PSLs. 1E loves u guys,
even if we didn't scream
during the PSL investiture.

Thurs: YAY. rejoice, yeo cheng rong is ill! i'm bad YES, but it relates to chinese, so no one will think i am EVIL. Ponned cross training todae, hey no, i had valid reason. I had dental appointment, and my primary school coach is leaving. so i went back to SAPS track todae, took a taxi and when we were reaching, i was chanting:"十二块，十二块，十二块!!!!" Cause i had no small change. Oyea, i took the taxi with chang, and she hasn't returned me half yet. i can't remember how much ler, DIE. Then talked to coach abit. then i stood beside him while Mrs Yap announced a letter from the police to us. It said that there was a pervert in the Bukit Batok District that exposes himself to girls, so if we see any suspicious man, try to keep away from him, and if he follows u, take note of his er..... what was that. attributes or wadever. then i was like, look at coach, he looked at me. then he said" neh, you look so suspicious, get your juniors report you to police." then i was like" EH, JUNIORS, A MAN BESIDE ME IS WEARING SUNGLASSES, SUSPICIOUS RIGHT?" Coach was beside me, and wearing sunglasses. you get the idea don't u? then i tried 400m with the pri 5s. the best timing was 1min 28secs. PRO. but i was better, only by 4 secs though, in pri 5. then i run 300m i stop ler. if i finished, shud be about 1min 10-15secs. i just walked to the side n did the "i'm dying" signs to my juniors. Oh yes, i CRIED when i saw issy and hugged her. =( i miss her, i'm also crying NOW(as in, todae, 1st feb??). Kay over.

hah, FRIDAY(todae): Happy Bdae Felicia, and Sze Fan. and the bloody february babies. I'm so damn jealous, i still have to wait for 10 months and 22 days to my bdae.Didn't get to eat the cake, wanted to leave some for the PSLs and my friends, i don't appreciate things anyways, so i don't really deserve to get the cake, =D. Then damn mr Keith took his time to come down, Qian Ying and Eelin didn't get to eat the cake. 1E is bad. So am i. Hey, i mean, after all the things they done for us. i dunno why we didn't see the other 2 though. We should have let them have the cake. we're bad... Drenched myself after dance, because my classmates didn't dare to run through the rain to classroom, so i had to stand in the rain to "encourage" them. Kai Song was the worst, stayed there look at me, then Jia Hui came to me in the rain and we ran into shelter at the dance room outside. Shouted at Kai Song to run then we ran, he then slowed down at the steps, then i took my SKIRT to cover ABIT of him while he jogged in. Shivered while waiting for mr quek's arrival, i thought he was arriving soon, n i change damn slowly, so i decided to wait till talk was over then change, but cannot tahan so go and change. Stayed back for C girls meeting with mr quek. 1 hour talk on how we shud train. Pang sehed my D&T group by accident, ACCIDENT. went home with Eeyore MOO and evil no1 senior. byebye! contribute $1 hor. CLASS FUNDS