Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

♥ PROFILE

The girl's name: Stephanie Liew

This girl was hatched out from her egg on 23/12/1995

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Friday, March 27, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009

today was a weird day.
got pissed off for no apparant reason.
malay lessons were wasted,
used up to relax myself.
my heart was beating fast and i felt it.

and also,
i so scared until almost cry.
anyways. was ok after awhile.
just donno why.
keep having this feeling for some days ler.

srsly,
all this stress is getting to me.
i can't really stand up straight with these pressure.
i really need to score well.
just can't help feeling disappointed in myself.
1 and 1/4 years and i've nv gotten >3.0 GPA.
what's the prob with me.

i work so hard,,
at least harder than ever.
i still got a miserable 2.5.
how come, i don't understand.

i'll work harder.

and i can't feel the presence of anyone even when they're near me.
i can't sense anything care or concern.
it feels like you all are just playing about.
with me yes.

sometimes,
everyone seems to let me down.
and i seem to be doing the same.

hah, and to think bernice noticed me when i was quiet,
i thought my existance wasn't noticed. -.-
wadever.

byebye.
i'm gonna calm myself.
>.<

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Thursday, March 26, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009

siann..
today sucked.
PE SUCKED THATS WHY.
anyway, was vry confusing day lors.
thought alot again.
shan't say much but ya.

after PE was maths,
changed into uniform in time. =D
but just couldn't concentrate luhhs.
didn't managed to etch wad ms lee said into my mind.

Science was ok,
couldn't concentrate in the front,
went to the toilet to sort thinkings,
feelings and everything first,
then went back to class for lessons.
siannzzz. why liddat.

continued thinking alot still,
but could try to concentrate,
so decided to stay for 3.30 supplementry,
(i have to improve. GPA 3.3!<3)

training was uber slack today.
zone passings,
starting blocks,
thenn pandian left,
and we continued with acceleration,
drills,
150m runsx2

sianzz.
i go sleep liao lar. byebye

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Sometimes i think i have no true friends eh.
there's no faith,
no trust,
no support.
like they're just invisible walls around me.

yadeeda.
i've been thinking again -.-
you know,
sometimes i think i think too much.
aha, there i go again. =P

what are friends.
to me,
they're people who put their trust in you.
have faith in you,
give you support.

i don't see any though.
when i said i'm trying to be hardworking,
no one believed.
when i said i've changed for the better,
everyone just smiled.
when i needed support,
i just couldn't rely on them.

they don't know me,
i don't care anymore.

me laughing doesn't mean i'm happy,
joking doesn't mean i'm a joker or funny,
not crying doesn't mean i don't show pity,
not replying doesn't mean i don't care,
not asking doesn't mean i don't give a damn.

i'm just like that.
i've been through so much,
i just don't know how to express myself anymore.

Say i'm heartless when veron cried and i din't console her.
say i'm heartless when i made things worst trying to help.
say i'm useless when we're doing projects.

i don't want to try anymore,
seems like 好人没好报.
what's the point of being nice,
what's the point of hiding.
i want to be what everyone don't like,
a bad person.

since that's what i am in everybody's mind.
i pon CCA,
i slacked in projects,
i suck at studying.
i don't care about my marks.
i don't give a damn bout others' feelings.
all i care is making myself happy.

if that's what i am,
then that's what i'm gonna be.
heartless,
useless,
stupid,
selfish.

wow,
i don't seem to have any good points,
原来我在每个人的心中，是那么的无处.

sometimes i just want to cry,
but i don't know where.

sometimes i want to die,
but i don't dare.

sometimes i want to sleep forever,
but the alarm clock wakes me up for school.

sometimes i want to work hard,
but in the end everyone took me as a fool.

i'm tired of trying already.

Don't walk behind me,
I may not lead.
Don't walk in front of me,
I may not follow.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Sunday, March 15, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009

congrats to the netballers,
(whether played or not),
on winning the champ title of westies,
and 2nd runner up of westies.
you guys deserved it really.

i've seen all of yaw train so hard,
i know all of yaw wanted to win so hard.
this shows that,
you reap what you sow.

you made some mistakes,
so what?
you learnt from them,
corrected them,
went on to earn your titles.
thats what matters.

most importantly,
what matters is your team.
what you have all gone through,
TOGETHER.

i think i learnt alot from them luh.
everyone makes mistakes.
pick yourself up,
put your whole heart on the court,
fight for your titles,
and win as a team.

victory or lose,
it all comes down to whether you've learnt anything,
teamwork, friendship,
that's what everythings' about.
=D


you reap what you sow.
team.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, March 7, 2009
Saturday, March 07, 2009

woah. time flies yea :x
4 months since i posted?!
okok i shall post today then.
but its jst on a video.
yeayea i know i'm slow or what,
but it's vry touching luh.

its for the SiChuan Victims.
artists from HIM Int.
(: and don't just hear the tune luh,
understand the lyrics,
empathise with the victims in SC.

Imagine how you would feel if you lose your love ones,
just because mother nature made some shaking.
the pain wouldn't be temporary right.
it would be a scar that won't go off.
don't talk about plastic surgery,
it's a mental scar. unless you take out your brain. =P
yah, just learn to empathise and don't rock on with the music,
listen with your ears,
and maybe you'll understand.




Learn to treasure your loved ones yah.
just a simple word of appreciation.
anything may happen tomorrow.
and there goes your chance. :(

expressing the emptiness inside me..