ok haha, too lazy to update.
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ee, i tell you all,
i feeling damn stressed.
VIOLIN+PIANO EXAMS,
next month.
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3weeks to be exact.
and i swear i won't pass my grade 7 piano,
can't play my pieces well at all.
hello, i can't even complete half.
and 3 weeks, pls la.
i never even memorise my scales uh.
and my sight-reading has deproved like shiet!
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damn stress,
and my mother keeps thinking i'm not doing enough for schoolwork,
when i'm actually working like a cow.
maybe it's because my bro is doing so much better.
hello, he topped class for 4 subjects.
i never even pass middle line.
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and when he announced the news for celebrations,
i din know whether to be happy or pissed.
hey, ok i'm proud of my bro,
but i'm pissed that he's always doing better.

not to mention,
i've been working like shit,
doing all i can not to sleep(and i never sleep)in class.
studying physics notes over and over again
reading chinese books, doing chinese hw,
even doing LA hello?!

no improvements,
maybe i'm just this standard.
i really feel like crying liao la..
i feel damn stupid now.
why my brother do so well i cannot.
i can't even do my piano well.

just now practise piano,
played like shit,
just gave up and my mom was like,
'sian'

can someone meet me aft school.
i have alot of 心事 to 谈.
i feel very demoralised.
i'm not excelling in academics or cca,
my bro is topping th class like !@#$
he's performing in !@#$s of concerts.

right, i'm like direct oppo lah,
he's excelling,
i'm stupiding.
sian diao,
sometimes i don feel motivated to study.
man, 讲到很想哭...