Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

♥ PROFILE

The girl's name: Stephanie Liew

This girl was hatched out from her egg on 23/12/1995

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RV Athletics

♥ DESIRES
6-2'07 gathering<3
See SAPS teachers again =P
Celebrate Bdae with Carrots(23rd Dec!)
A chance to turn back time...

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♥ FRIENDS

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Saturday, October 25, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008

FUCK OFF MAN.
saying that u called me,
but i didn't react or what.
then when i reacted you walked away.
WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?

you could just walk over to talk.
instead u called me from afar so softly,
and accused me of ignoring you,
just to "take revenge"
FINE, think whatever you want.
who needs you anyway.

i'm just going to prove to you,
i can do the same in other things.
and you've just put out the burning passion in me.
i've lost it and i don't want to continue.

so fuck off,
because ur restricting my life..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, October 17, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008

曾以为是一对,
原来是幻想.
缘份不存在,
再怎么哀求也不会有分别.

I thought.
nah, i don't know what i'm thinking.
maybe.

maybe running isn't for me la.
shan't be the frog in a well.
for once i should jump out and see the world.
maybe i can wait for another 3 years.

anyway,
thanks for the great memories.
you know,
i think i haven't interacted with the team for 3 weeks or 4.
very long liao right.

we weren't meant to be together maybe.
thats why it's like this now.
i don't know.
it's partially my fault,
and partially destiny.

i can change destiny..
but i don't have the strength to do anything now.
i don't know how to decide.
sometimes it feels like a blessing in disguise.
i feel so free now.

I got so much time to do my own things,
instead of fretting over the next training.
can do what i want lor.

but sometimes it feels weird.
can't help but think about it.
blah.

i actually have the right to choose whether to go back or not.
but i'm not sure what i really want.
whatever la.

but i was really upset when he accused me,
of being not interested in running.
because he said every training,
i give the 'i don't care' look.

like,
how can he jump to conclusions.
hurt my feelings -.-"
whatever.
i'm actually dead inside alr.
if you haven't notice. -.-

stop all these crappings liao.

100m heats on tues.
win,win,win,win,win,win.
FAITH IN MYSELF.
blah.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, October 11, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008

i think i've injured my shoulder muscle.
you can't blame me.
an idiot who tries to push up so many times.
70 times to be exact.

and i just tumbled down after 47.
i feel weak already.
i just left myself lying on the floor.
maybe its just the best way to forget everything.
fine, now i can't even hold a pen properly.
-screams-

i wish i could go to the beach,
and start screaming.
but everyone would think i'm an idiot.
-.- which i am.

...
stupid world.
making everything so difficult.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Wednesday, October 08, 2008

don't seem to.
-sians-

there doesn't seem to be anyone u can trust nowadays.
how many times i've let this go over myself.
then it keeps happening again and again.
i hate you.

humans are that weird.
they just think what you received is deserved.
and i'm feeling guilty.
cause i just made someone feel hurt.
i feel so..
heartless.

just wait till the day i die,
i may never even learn the meaning of appreciation.

my way of friends:
As long as you're real to me, trust me, believe in me, love me, listen to me,
i don't mind sacrificing anything. cause i believe without friends i will not be what i am today. i don't care about attitudes. its how a person is. And there was never a need for any of my friends to change because i love the way each and everyone of them were. childish, mature, short-tempered, retard, crazy, serious. It's always amazing to see how you all express yourselves. And i know attitudes are part of humans and there is no way one can change.

Is that ALOT?
or maybe you think i'm a simple-minded idiot.
maybe i trust people too easily.

Then i give up,
don't expect me to say yes straight away anymore.
sometimes, there will be doubt.
in myself, in you,
in everyone..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Monday, October 6, 2008
Monday, October 06, 2008

i hate school.
every night before a schoolday.
i just feel like crying.
find ways to not go to school.
i don't know why.

i just find no goal in it.
no motivations yep.
since its EOY period,
hopefully lesser people see my blog.

I'm crying every morning before i go school.
i purposely came to school late today.
i just don't want to go to school kay.
piang eh.


so what if EOYs are coming,
i don't care if i fail or pass.
i shouldn't have come to RV in the first place.
just should have went to a neighbourhood school.

wake up at 7,
go school 715,
reach 720.
lesser stress,
easier marks.

why was i so stupid.
all i did was to appeal into RV.
and a small matter turned my life upside down.
stupid me.

i want to bang my head on the wall.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Monday, October 06, 2008

I realised i'm alr at 101 posts.
=D

SCHOOL SUCKS.
I DON'T WANT TO GO SCHOOL.
FUCK SCHOOL.

NO.
WHO WANTS TO FUCK SCHOOL.
I'D RATHER FUCK MY AUNT'S DOG.
>:(

expressing the emptiness inside me..