Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

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The girl's name: Stephanie Liew

This girl was hatched out from her egg on 23/12/1995

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Saturday, May 31, 2008
Saturday, May 31, 2008

Somehow 1E's got me repelled.
It's like, everytime the girls try to organise outings
they just don't care, can't be bothered.
I don't know how hard it is to just give your attention for 5 mins.
Or maybe, just shut your trap.
all these has me thinking,
are we really one class?

People claim it takes time to get close to your class,
it's been 5 months, yet i don't feel a thing.
The teachers, seniors, PSLs,
they've all done their part to bond us,
and hello,
they ain't part of this class fyi.
We haven't even done anything for the class,
not a single thing.
I can't say its all on the boys,
MOSTLY yes,
but some girls, they have this problems shoved up their minds.
they can't seem to let others talk for once,
and give positive comments.

Like, someone.
the teacher just has to wear his or her favourite tee
and she has to complain because of his or her taste.
WHATS THE PROBLEM WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S DECISIONS?
is it that hard to show some respect?
SEE THAT TEACHER SO NO TASTE,
ALWAYS WEAR SAME DESIGN.
THEN SHE RAISE HER ARM HER BODY CAN SEE.
ya SO WHAT? it's HER decision, not ours.
she's your teacher, she teaches you.
she controls her temper,
she lets us be when we go completely out of control,
yet you have to critizise her.
Wake up bitch, its not all about your favour.

1E, don't make me feel so uncomfortable,
i feel so...
It's so hard to explain.
It's hard to get along with almost all of you.
I know some may hate me for posting this,
i mean.
I know the class isn't all about ME.
but, even if you make the world hate me,
i wouldn't want to see an unbonded class,
i just want everyone to be happy?
Is that too much to ask for?
all we have to do is to just give in once in a while,
everything will be FINE after that.
all we have to do is to put in a little effort,
and everyone can be happy.

If nothing really changes,
i think i may regret my two years in RV.
Not everything's about having fun,
we have to work together at times,
GROUP work.
Yet we have to be so picky at the roles we play.
SO WHAT if you're a leader of a group.
If you can't sacrifice just a little for the members,
you're just as useless as a piece of rotten apple skin.

And why, you think sentosa's too small of a place for an outing.
FINE, why don't you just join your family for a trip at USA.
i'm not referring to anyone. i'm just giving examples.
You know the thing that really keeps me going in RV,
amazingly isn't 1E.
It's the CARROTS.
We can't even work together as a team during a small game of Captain's ball.
ask the carrots,
during nationals,
if they ever injure themselves halfway through the distance,
will they just give up and leave it to the rest of the team?
NO. they don't, they continue,
they make sure they finish the race.
Thats what really matters,
its not the outcome,
its the process that makes us learn.

At least they know,
at anytime if they look back,
they'll know they haven't let the team down,
they completed the race,
put in their best.
Whereas,
like Mr Keith said,
we can't even play like a TEAM.
Do you even know what a TEAM means?
Its hidden meaning is actually.
Looking out for each other,
doing things for each other,
sacrificing for each other.
winning for each other.
ENCOURAGING each other and
giving in to each other.
That isn't all.
There's still more, but it's a little more obvious now.
So if you can't see it, your life is meaningless.

I have experience.
4 people in a team.
3 girls 1 boy.
That boy, is called sacrificing.
We play and halfway through,
someone said she injured her finger.
I don't mean you can't injured your finger and rest.
but,
there's just a mere minute to go till the end of the match
and that one point.
they can't sacrifice. bear with the bloody pain.
Then she just stands out there, look at us play.
fine, 3 people left, 1 as goalkeeper.
2 people playing.
THEN, another girl just leaves the field with no notice.
and guess what,
she stands at the outer field watching happily like nothing ever happened.
and u know what?
there's 2 more left on the field,
one as goalkeeper,
so there's only one against 3 on the field fighting for the ball.
I was the one left on the field.
FINE, i accept it, i played on.
even so, both of us kept a positive goal,
score at least something?
or keep on playing till the end.
And guess what, we even managed to score.
we lost, the outer 2 didn't even know we won or lost.
And during the break i suggested getting a strategy or sth,
they said no hope.
FINE, i shan't talk about this.
It makes me mad, and disappointed.
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But somehow i have to learn to treasure.
when i was watching channel 8,
i saw the sichuan charity show ad,
there was a quote,
*translated*
Darling, please come back to me,
please be safe because i will be waiting for you.
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it really made me realise,
we've never been truely treasuring those around us.
those that care for us,
what did we do in return?
"i'm fine, myob la."
It's not until we've lost then did we treasure.
My grandmother passed away when i was just 7~8
i didn't realise she really meant so much to me.
no, i don't want to talk about it now.
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never mind.
i'm alright,
people do emo.
And this is my 1 in 100 chance of emo-ing.
yea and its not really emo,
just other refelctions.
and they're unhappy ones unfortunately...
i'm having mixed emotions now..
=( (= oh whatever..

expressing the emptiness inside me..