oh, man. i feel so tired.
as in, mentally.
i wish a car would run me down now.
i'm so tired of this world.
it's really time i kept quiet and change myself...

Imagine...

If i had been alot less playful in primary 4.
I could have made it to 5-2 or 5-1.
I could have pulled my science high high.
i wouldn't have caused so much trouble.
i wouldn't have made so many mistakes.
i wouldn't have missed out on so many things...
so many things that would have made me a better person.
that would play a part in maturing me.
what can i do?

Imagine...

If i had been alot more conscious of my actions in primary 5.
I could have avoided insulting chinese teacher,
and to think i was proud of that.
It just boosted my morality for a moment,
then brought me back down to a wimp.
i know i did better to go to 6-2,
it wasn't all my effort.
it was mostly thanks to Mrs Tan and her scoldings.
It really made me a better person.
I wouldn't have known carrots, friends, RV
if it wasn't for her. Thanks... for everything. (:

Imagine...
If i was more mature in primary 6.
I wouldn't have argued with chinese teacher.
i wouldn't have to trouble ms loh so much
ms loh wouldn't have to spend time to talk to me.
I know i was from 5-3.
I wasn't up to everyone's standard yet.
thanks to ms loh's encouragement,
i did it.
it wasn't me again, it was ms loh.
And if she didn't talk me back into reality,
i could have failed chinese for PSLE.
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i owe so much to all my teachers, i haven't really said so before.
If you're a junior in primary 6 about to graduate.
learn to treasure.
It will be different in 2009.
You won't get to see your friends and teachers everyday like before.
There's not only weekly or monthly gap.
It's going to be half a year, years, or so on.
Have you thanked your teachers and friends,
thank them for what they did for you?
How much they have changed you over the years?
you better do so soon,
time is almost running out,
it's a race now, but you've still got 5 more months to say out what you need to.
even if you think you aren't doing any good now,
you would be worst if you hadn't met your peers, teachers.
You could be suspended,
caned,
boys/girls home?
Really, and,
if you haven't been giving teacher's day gifts over 6 years.
it's alright really.
I was that way too,
until i knew how to treasure.
well, i did gave gifts to pri 4,5 and 6 teacher.
and hell, were they so much surprised. XD
It'll make you lighter trust me.
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Back again,
i'm feeling bored.
I've ran out of ideas.
what can i do?
sleep the day away.
i only have homework to pass time.
and time runs even slower when ur doing homework. -.-"

Something is still missing from me.
I'm losing confidence.
i don't know what to do really.
everything is so dark nowadays.
so dull, so meaningless...

I feel like emo-ing.
i realised it's normal to emo.
so yea. stare at computer screen all day,
i'm tired of all these.
i'm waiting for school to reopen.
i want a new timetable.
a timetable that has P.E that clashes,
clashes with the carrots,
some close friends.
someone i know,
or haven't seen in action during P.E
faster come out bloddy timetable...
I'm bored and i want to study you...

setting off.


disappeared,
all disappeared.
all that i really had before.
they've just vanished.
just run me down.
i can't stand all these anymore...