actually i know it myself,
that not going on thursdays and saturdays,
blessings in diguise.
but i don't really know whats bothering me.
my wrist got cut during exams la.
then it bled. just a little.
dunce.

everytime the crossers talk about races or trainings,
i feel out yea?
i don't know what to say.
i wasn't given the chance to participate.
blehx ;x

not to mention tmr.
he's gonna dao me meihui kelly and hui chyi.
damn bloody shit ass.
feeling uber pissed off.

Thanks for chatting Valen.
i think we're under the same kind of pressure.
so we kind of understand the feeling.
i don't know what happened to you,
since you won't tell me,
i won't force you as well.
since i din't tell you too.

i was supposed to be strong yea?
a fighter.
i once was,
now i crumbled under him.
i don''t want to let him know my feelings.
fuck that old man.
wait, no one wants to fuck an old bloody old man.

took penknife out to play.
i took it to cut my paper.
then i STONED.
but i din't do it
cus she wanted it back *phew*

but i had this strong urge to do it.
but i couldn't control during exams,
so i kept using my nails.
since there was so much time left. =X
i couldn't sleep so i stoned.
i wouldn't want to classify as emo.
cus i don't want to be emo kia JOANNE CHEW.

stoning is officially bad for ME now.
i'm uber scared i got scar leh.
it won't be nice with scars on my arms.

if ms loh hears of this,
she'll be disappointed in me i bet.
i mean,
after all she said to me last time.
i don't want to disappoint anyone.

then my mom kept asking me why i
心事重重.
then i was like:
NO LA NO LA.
then i changed the subject to table tennis.

and i'm vry touched by valen.
other than the fact she called me ELDERLY,
instead of OLDER.
she said if the both of us were stuck in quicksand,
sinking quick,
she'll push me out.

Then i said i can't let her do that.
I'm the SENIOR mah.
i must protect junior.
then she say young must help ELDERLY.
but she's not much younger than me though. =P

WHAHAHA.
I'M JUST OLDER THAN HER BY 1 MONTH! =D
I'M NOT OLD! =D
MINUS 23RD DECEMBER WITH 14 FEBUARY FOR ME PLS!
=D

i'm dreading tmr.
where i have to slack.
then i probably will do some sha shi.
then i'll bleed even more.
don't scare myself la.

Ciao...