Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

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Sunday, August 17, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008

tdy's crossing day.
and i have to be at home while the rest run.
how demoralising.

i'm afraid to run now.
everytime i see the real run shirt on somebody,
i'll freak out and walk another direction.
i can't stand it,
it just reminds me of bad things.

my parents think i'm happy,
cause i don't need to go for trainings,
especially on saturdays.
wishful thinking on their part.
since i told them that way.

i know i shouldn't write this way.
since everyone who cares is gonna be disappointed.
then tell me where else should i say all these.
or who else i should say to.
i'm making the team unhappy i know.
sorry, i didn't want all these to happen.

just concentrate on running,
don't care about me lah,
i know what i'm doing.
i'll probably get over it soon enough.

bleh. its weird i keep saying all these,
and somehow i try and it doesn't work.
don't think i'm not trying.
it was done sub consciously.
so i don't know what happened,
only feel it happen.

i got this fear of upcoming tuesday.
i'm gonna have to run for nothing,
and then go home early.
and i have to buy compass for test.


and here i am doing all these with it.

its not that i don't want to say it to anyone,
i don't have this courage.
i never was the stephanie i once was sey.
not since being through training with him for 2 months,
i had to change according to his will.
everytime he says something,
it affects my life a whole lot more than i think it would.
just because i was dumb.
dumb enough to follow what he said.

maybe i really belong in track.
maybe, but the team is like a stranger.
nothing beats having the team with you when you're down.
pandian is nice, track team is nice.
but somehow it'll never be as nice as cross-country's team.

just conclusion.
no one will ever know what i'm going through.
maybe this is part and parcel of life.
where everything falls and no one seems to be there.

i'm trying to get over with these blog posts,
but everytime i think of a topic,
this comes into my mind.
no where else to say it,
no one else to hear it.
this is the best place.

definitely soon i'll be gone,
if i don't stop.
it hurts, it really does.

but what can i do? nothing at all.
nothing good really comes my way.

expressing the emptiness inside me..