ahh.
Nicole knows liao.
cause i stupidly telll her.
accident.
everybody makes one.
me.
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dang ;x
this world is changing too much.
i don't think this way cus i could shoot balls.
it's amazing how OBVIOUS.
my cuts are to people.
wtf?!

i thought my watch was hiding them.
keith teo saw them
nicole tay saw them
benson saw them.
scary luh...

din feel like going home today.
so stayed back with chang,benson and darren.
harrharr.
stupid bensdon kept giving the stupid smile.
then they started to homework.

i walked about the school,
my mind was blank.
i didn't know what to do,
what to think of,
what could happen.

i don't know,
am i taking things too lightly or heavily.
cause it's like,
i take setbacks hard,
i try too lightly to cut out of addiction.
well, what is this?

it's true that i don't know how to express myself,
other than happiness,
all i do is laugh and smile.
anger,
it's been bugging me often lately.

and it feels bad to bottle it up,
except that when i want to open,
it's stuck and i'm too weak to open.
bla, enough of these examples.

i just get angry easily,
i want to harm others,
but deep inside i don't want to.
who else to harm other than myself.

i don't want to be a burden.
a walking thorn.
poking everyone in my way.
i don't want to harm others.
because they're innocent,
i'm the one who started all these self attack or wadever.

and they shouldn't interfere.
because i would feel worst.
i feel like someone who brings harm to my friends.
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t believe friendship and family made my life in order.
i owe damn lots to these two subjects.
and all i want to do is to protect them,
and not to harm them or hurt them.
then what am i?
a useless friend who only brings about trouble,
arguments, anger, pissed feelings.

waaa.
i feel like crying.
damn it lor.
this sucks man.
now i know how it feels to feel depressed.
cause i'm majorly depressed.
i think.
but i don't want to be.