i'm pissed at today.
today sucked.
i don't know why but i gave in to addiction again.
fuck, is this like, drugs or what.
...


fine,
see this post and maybe me and you will know.
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training today sucked.
2rounds warm up,
12 rounds run,
2 rounds cool down.

we're not pigs yea?
why make us run like this.
are you INSULTING us secretly or what.
we can do much better than that.

fucking pissed off after training.
and my pin on my pinafore dropped off.
COINCIDENCE.
i know, too much of one,
but it happened to me.

then i started to stare,
and when i had to see my teammates training below,
i gave in to my addiction.
and its damn big red scar across my wrist.
i'm trying,
trying but i gave in.
i'm confused and tired and i don't want to continue.
tell me what to do someone..

cross it,
i couldn't stand it anymore,
and i went to the bus-stop to wait instead,
so i won't have to see team train.
through the passage where HE and they could not see me.
DUH~

and chang made such a big fuss out of it,
and shouted to the whole world -.-
i wanted to push her down the tracks that moment.
LOL. SERIOUS LA!
next time i'll improve la,
i just cut off her tongue can liao.

cutcutcut,
fuck ALL these.
don't mind my language i say again.
i'm bloody hell FUCKED UP.

to valen:
you told me not to give up.
but to try.
i'm trying but are you?
i don't want you to only think about others.
think about yourself too.
if you ain't gonna try,
i'm not.
cause i'm really tired,
no motivations, nothing.
lets do this tgt lesbo.
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