see, life is so unpredictable.
benedict loh was like,
a healthy active boy.
and now he's lying in the ICU ward.
fuck you god.
why do you have to make those who didn't do much harm suffer so much.

don't need to see also want to cry liao.
rabitah said he woke up,
good thing luh.
and his mom will sms her when he moves to normal ward.

i wish we could share a heart,
like how we could share a kidney -.-
but no luh,
now we have to use a life to save another.
as in, use a dead person's one.
yuck, but its to save a life.
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and dang,
i'm really afraid someone in my family will find out about it.
what i'm doing now luh.
fuck, why did i even start it.
i want to stop.

shit,'
the wounds hurt when come into contact with water.
>.< damn it,
why am i complaining when i did all these to myself -.-
stupid me.

i really must stop but it's so difficult.
i almost stabbed myself ACCIDENTALLY lol.
i wanted to use it to scratch me tummeh,
but i used the wrong end to scratched,
and pressed vry hard instead -.-
stupid luh, i just woke up to do maths mah.
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aw man,
my left hand gonna be damn ugly.
shit.
fuckass.
i take things more harder now.
and i'm more sensitive to the happenings nowadays.
well,
i'm not surprised.
all these changed me so much anyway.