曾以为是一对,
原来是幻想.
缘份不存在,
再怎么哀求也不会有分别.

I thought.
nah, i don't know what i'm thinking.
maybe.

maybe running isn't for me la.
shan't be the frog in a well.
for once i should jump out and see the world.
maybe i can wait for another 3 years.

anyway,
thanks for the great memories.
you know,
i think i haven't interacted with the team for 3 weeks or 4.
very long liao right.

we weren't meant to be together maybe.
thats why it's like this now.
i don't know.
it's partially my fault,
and partially destiny.

i can change destiny..
but i don't have the strength to do anything now.
i don't know how to decide.
sometimes it feels like a blessing in disguise.
i feel so free now.

I got so much time to do my own things,
instead of fretting over the next training.
can do what i want lor.

but sometimes it feels weird.
can't help but think about it.
blah.

i actually have the right to choose whether to go back or not.
but i'm not sure what i really want.
whatever la.

but i was really upset when he accused me,
of being not interested in running.
because he said every training,
i give the 'i don't care' look.

like,
how can he jump to conclusions.
hurt my feelings -.-"
whatever.
i'm actually dead inside alr.
if you haven't notice. -.-

stop all these crappings liao.

100m heats on tues.
win,win,win,win,win,win.
FAITH IN MYSELF.
blah.