Sometimes i think i have no true friends eh.
there's no faith,
no trust,
no support.
like they're just invisible walls around me.

yadeeda.
i've been thinking again -.-
you know,
sometimes i think i think too much.
aha, there i go again. =P

what are friends.
to me,
they're people who put their trust in you.
have faith in you,
give you support.

i don't see any though.
when i said i'm trying to be hardworking,
no one believed.
when i said i've changed for the better,
everyone just smiled.
when i needed support,
i just couldn't rely on them.

they don't know me,
i don't care anymore.

me laughing doesn't mean i'm happy,
joking doesn't mean i'm a joker or funny,
not crying doesn't mean i don't show pity,
not replying doesn't mean i don't care,
not asking doesn't mean i don't give a damn.

i'm just like that.
i've been through so much,
i just don't know how to express myself anymore.

Say i'm heartless when veron cried and i din't console her.
say i'm heartless when i made things worst trying to help.
say i'm useless when we're doing projects.

i don't want to try anymore,
seems like 好人没好报.
what's the point of being nice,
what's the point of hiding.
i want to be what everyone don't like,
a bad person.

since that's what i am in everybody's mind.
i pon CCA,
i slacked in projects,
i suck at studying.
i don't care about my marks.
i don't give a damn bout others' feelings.
all i care is making myself happy.

if that's what i am,
then that's what i'm gonna be.
heartless,
useless,
stupid,
selfish.

wow,
i don't seem to have any good points,
原来我在每个人的心中，是那么的无处.

sometimes i just want to cry,
but i don't know where.

sometimes i want to die,
but i don't dare.

sometimes i want to sleep forever,
but the alarm clock wakes me up for school.

sometimes i want to work hard,
but in the end everyone took me as a fool.

i'm tired of trying already.

Don't walk behind me,
I may not lead.
Don't walk in front of me,
I may not follow.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.