today was a weird day.
got pissed off for no apparant reason.
malay lessons were wasted,
used up to relax myself.
my heart was beating fast and i felt it.

and also,
i so scared until almost cry.
anyways. was ok after awhile.
just donno why.
keep having this feeling for some days ler.

srsly,
all this stress is getting to me.
i can't really stand up straight with these pressure.
i really need to score well.
just can't help feeling disappointed in myself.
1 and 1/4 years and i've nv gotten >3.0 GPA.
what's the prob with me.

i work so hard,,
at least harder than ever.
i still got a miserable 2.5.
how come, i don't understand.

i'll work harder.

and i can't feel the presence of anyone even when they're near me.
i can't sense anything care or concern.
it feels like you all are just playing about.
with me yes.

sometimes,
everyone seems to let me down.
and i seem to be doing the same.

hah, and to think bernice noticed me when i was quiet,
i thought my existance wasn't noticed. -.-
wadever.

byebye.
i'm gonna calm myself.
>.<